C'est la vie

See that picture there. We (myself and the Hari Raya AidilFitri Committee) went shopping. Yeah, shopping during working hour at Mahkota Parade. As usual, i am in the committee for Hari Raya AidilFitri celebration. And this year for the second year running, i am the chairman of the committee. This year's committee comprises of 11 people. Myself as the chairman, Noraini as vice chairman, Suhaizal as secretary and the rest here are the members. Kak Sofa, Kak Aemei, Zuhaizan, Iskandar, Khairunnazwa, Lornah,Izah and BinTaib.

Normally what do we do.. For Hari Raya committee actually we have 2 events to organise. First is the plantwide celebration of Hari Raya which will be later in Novembver and the second event is Majlis Berbuka Puasa and donations to orphans and single mothers. 50 orphans and single mothers were selected from nearby villages. As for the orphans, the committee members will take them shopping for 'baju raya' while some cash were given to the single mothers. At least to share with them something while celebrating AidilFitr.

Well, the above picture is taken in the bus while waiting for the rest of the whole lot to return to the bus. See all the smiling faces of the young ones and their mothers, enjoying themselves buying clothes and shoes for Hari Raya.

Kalau nak fikirkan, this year i myself will celebrate AidilFitr without my beloved father around. I don't think i have the heart to celebrate AidilFitr this year. Hari Raya to me this year is just a day to note my completion of fasting. Nothing more than that. I tried so hard to be excited to celebrate Hari Raya, but the feeling just won't come. Maybe, Beg is right. I just need some time or something or perhaps someone to make my Raya a meaningful Raya again. But, for now just let it be that way.

Makin dekat nak raya, makin selalu acik ingat pada ayah. Tak pernah sehari pun dalam hidup yang acik tak ingat pada ayah. Ayah, i miss you so much. I miss the laughter we shared, the joke you created, the fights we used to have and most of all..the game we used to bowl together. I know you know how much i love you.

But, that is life. Fate that we can't change. It is called Qada' and Qadar.

Jya ne!